Need to get in the writing flu. The stream of words, with which I need to describe in a more detailed manner, the progress we made as a family in handling allergies. And from where we came through the years. The obstacles, which we encountered, the jumps we made: sky high up and deep - dark deep - down. I am still to minimalistic in the wat I express my feelings and thus the story I need to share for myself. When I read books about similar fields of interests, I am more than often impressed by the way the author s capable to look through the tunnel, and before stepping out into the light, he mentions so many small and miniscule issues to get the message more colored. The layout of my project lays in front of me. It's on my desk and the hole project is still on the edge of a tiny insight observation. What is missing is a fragmented guide of all the thoughts behind the actions (struggles, anger, misunderstanding, miscoping, dealing and full understanding) to cope with a life with allergies. It is hard to re-think how we made up our minds in stressful situations. It's part of the fact that there has been longtime a kind of 'laissez aller' attitude. By ourselves and the close environment. We kept the allergy journey with all it's ins and outs kind of low key, not to much in the spot lights. I was dealing with my own constructed knowledge and the strategy to tell and inform others about our experiences seemed . I remember very well, that for a few people in our close circle, the impact of the allergies only started after seeing a documentary on television. The one with the clear picture and the undoubtable confrontation. Menaing severe allergies can cause dead after all. The story was about a girl kissed by her boy friend who ate peanuts and she died in within 24 hours. The ultimate nightmare scenario but a situation one need to face being the parent of a teenager with severe peanut allergies. There was in a changing in the way those poeple act towards us. More serious, more aware and honestly shocked by the documentary and more involved with allergy items in general.
I feel often myself, a hesitation, I am afraid that my story is too overwhelming. In fact it's much more about my own perception and fear. Probably I wasn't ready to go for it and profound the subject in a more suitable subject towards others and myself. What I like to try though is a way of mutual understanding about the issue: the allergies. It's about rules and strategies and different roles and about myself, my daughter, her sisters, my husband and we as a family.
I feel often myself, a hesitation, I am afraid that my story is too overwhelming. In fact it's much more about my own perception and fear. Probably I wasn't ready to go for it and profound the subject in a more suitable subject towards others and myself. What I like to try though is a way of mutual understanding about the issue: the allergies. It's about rules and strategies and different roles and about myself, my daughter, her sisters, my husband and we as a family.